I guess I'll start at the beginning...back in June Chris and I visited a fertility doctor. He was very kind and ran a bunch of tests which all came back normal (thankfully). However, this left us with the still lingering question of why is this happening? Unfortunately, there is not much that can be done for couples like us, so he said to just keep trying. Having the peace of mind that there wasn't something genetically wrong with us was a bit of a relief, but it was still frustrating to not have a real "plan" moving forward. Well, fast forward two weeks...the morning after my friend Jess' wedding I told Chris I had a feeling I might be pregnant. That afternoon, for shits and gigs I took a test and what do you know? Positive. I was relieved because it had been four months since my last D&C and we hadn't been successful in getting pregnant. BUT, I was also scared, nervous, and full of dread for what was to come.
The next morning I had blood drawn to measure my HCG levels and then I went back a few days later and then one week later to make sure they were doubling as they should. Everything looked great so far! This should have put my mind as ease a bit, but with my history I was a wreck. Total. wreck. I was so anxious and nervous and was convinced that this would end the way the others did.
Fast forward again and we were able to get an early ultrasound at 6 weeks at the fertility office and we heard the heartbeat for the first time. I can't even put into words what that sound meant to us. We've waited so long to hear that beautiful sound and it was as amazing as I had imagined so many times in my dreams. That bliss lasted about two days and then I went back to being a total anxiety ridden wreck until my 8 week appointment. I also started feeling sick at six weeks which was zero fun, but did make me feel better because I felt like it was a sign that things were going well. (I know that is not a scientific fact, but it helped me to believe this at the time!) A few days before my 8 week appt I began to feel better, so I was sure it was all over. I prepared Chris and my mom for bad news because I was sure I had miscarried. At my 8 week appointment Chris and I went to my regular doctor and saw the baby and heartbeat, again! It was so amazing and exciting and our doctor even showed us some 3d pics which was fun! I was so relieved to make it to this point because that is the furthest I had ever been. We went in one more time at 10 weeks for an ultrasound because I was still labeled high-risk and they offered it, so I of course, accepted! In the next few weeks we told our families and close friends and then had our 12 week appointment and all was well! Each time I went to the doctor and got to see the baby I started to feel a little more at ease.
Recently, we had our 20 week appointment and found our we are having a baby girl! I am so excited!! I already have the nursery all planned out. :) I just feel so blessed and so so so thankful that we are finally able to experience all of the joys of having a baby. I still don't understand why we had to go through everything we have the past year, but I don't think I ever will. At this point, it is behind us and I am just enjoying every day of this pregnancy!! Thank you to everyone for your positive thoughts and prayers...we have been through one hell of a storm, but we are back now and will have a beautiful baby girl at the end of our rainbow.
xoxo
Let's just hope she keeps that sweet button nose. ;)
Her legs crossed...already a lady! Knees are on the right and feet on the left. :) The bright white lines are her bones.
